Let's get fucked up and die

the fountain

2007-06-13T03:31:21Z

so far this movie has successfully made me cry every time i've watched it

it's probably the want to have someone love me as much as tommy loves izzy.....

it's not worth all this suffering
it's not worth all this sadness
it's not worth the frustration

but i won't give it up...what the hell is wrong with me

balls

2006-12-31T01:50:05Z

yeah

life.......scoff scoff angst

disco pigs

2006-08-27T02:15:46Z

Runt: What's the color of love, Pig?

Pig: What sort of love, love?

Runt: Don't know. But you know the way things, they got a color. I wonder what the color of love is.

Pig: Jesus, Runt. You could read a thousand think books and never know the answer to that quiz.

Runt: It's be a good one to know, ah?

Pig: It'd be brilliant, Runt. It's around here somewhere.

tonight goes as follows

2006-07-24T06:42:15Z

drank
tried to get into a bar because Joel said he could do it...and promised it would be "no big deal". we get to the bar, he walks in and leaves us three stranded....tina = pissed off

go back to the house, have anothe beer and listen to punks debate. someone calls someone else a "drifter" she gets pissed and leaves...more debating ensues.

joel comes back and i stare him down, tell him how pissed i am and proceed to ignore him. he then comes over to me (while i'm sitting down) and tries to put his head up my skirt while apologizing. i'm not gonna have it, so i slap the shit out of him. he says "sorry sorry sorry...name the resturaunt, i'll take you out for dinner sometime" WELL FUCK YOU BUDDY! you just tried to molest me AFTER you fucking ditch us at the bar...i think not. so i spit on him. i then proceed to get kicked out of the house. fuck this...i'm leaving. i call up daryl, and try to decide if i'm in the wrong. he says no, so i let it go. then i text shawn to see if he's upset at me for spitting on joel. he texts me back saying everyone has my back and he left. i call him up and he says the same thing, reassuring me that joel deserved it for being a fucking prick. good. at least my best friend doesn't hate me...obviously i'd spit on him again if he did it.

whatever. lots of people had my back, and were pissed that i got kicked out because of what a shitty person joel was being.

i love my TRUE friends.
<3

ahhhh
.....

goodnight

oh joy

2006-07-15T01:52:42Z

dad gets married on the 21st.

i've found someone who makes me smile....constantly

and i moved out of the hellhole apartment

sometimes things get better....after you've gone through the 7th circle of hell, of course

the_best_virus @ 2006-06-24T00:45:00

2006-06-24T04:46:14Z

<33333333

that's all

(i'm getting married when i come back from nj)
:P

self portrait

2006-06-23T07:55:21Z

in nj
3 hour flight delay....

so i created this

leavin on a jetplane

2006-06-18T16:42:28Z

june 22....to TECHNICALLY july 1

you can't make me come back...you just can't :/

for some reason i'm rather irked by this

:i'm not sure on my intentions, to be honest i feel wanted for the first time in god knows how long and i've been enjoying it. it sounds selfish i'm sure. i really just wanted to be your friend, not that we crossed any boundries and i don't mind sleeping next to you, but i'd understand on a strict just hanging out rule:

didn't i TELL you when you left me for her, that if she cheated on you to NOT come crying back to me. i warned you, fair and square. i was nice enough to take your call, nice enough to pay your way into the club, nice enough to drive ALL the way back to lawrence in the middle of the night because you wanted me to stay the night.

no

more

told ya so

the_best_virus @ 2006-06-13T11:40:00

2006-06-13T16:42:23Z

keep your mouth shut....

that's all.

9 days, i'll be in nj...away from all this nonsense.

good good good

and i've written pages upon pages trying to rid you from my bones

2006-03-13T03:37:40Z

I can't get you out of my head.

you're an asshole....leave my dreams alone and quit making me cry at night....

forgive me for loving you. it's pretty stupid huh?

i'll shut up and disappear again

your mom

2006-03-09T20:00:58Z

Let's just stop,
drop everything,
(forget each other's names) forget each other's names,
And just walk away.

Turn around and head in different directions,
Like we never, it's like we never knew each other at all.
We said what we feel, then we stop ourselves,
And just walk away.
Never looking back,
Loving every second of it,
we just walk away.

This is probably the best,
not to mention the worst idea,
that I have ever had.

Ignoring what we've felt,
Overlooking what we've done,
No awkward silences, no hiding any truths
Ignoring what we've felt,
Overlooking what we've done,
What do you say?

This is probably the best,
not to mention the worst idea,
that I have ever had.

We say what we feel,
Then we stop ourselves,
And just walk away.
Never looking back,
Loving every second of it,
We just walk away.

Let's just stop,
Drop everything,
Forget each other's names,
Can we please just walk away?
It could be...It could be...
Like we never knew each other at all.

Answer me!
All egos aside, what do you say?
All egos aside, what do you say?

Ignoring what we've felt,
Overlooking what we've done,
No awkward silences, no hiding any truths
Ignoring what we've felt,
Overlooking what we've done,
What do you say?

We say what we feel,
Then we stop ourselves,
And just walk away.
Never looking back,
Loving every second of it,
We just walk away.

no longer moved to drink strong whiskey

2006-02-10T08:42:38Z

i took a nap today

it's not letting me sleep

i'll be real "awake" in critiques tomorrow...yay....

fuck valentine's day

but i still made cookies
and i'm still mailing them, like a fool

Atticus

2006-01-28T02:35:48Z

gibbons...where are you now

2006-01-15T05:02:26Z

what does one do when the person they believe is "the one" leaves them....

for God

.....

2006-01-08T22:00:35Z

Well remember the guy who was a football star,
he had it made with the ladies, but he never got far
Five years past, now he's gotten kind of fat,
working 8 days a week at a Laundromat,
with his momma and his daddy breathing down his neck,
about everything he does so much it makes him sick
So he sits home alone, with the game on TV,
as the crowd goes wild he says "that coulda been me"

Just another day in suburbia
It's a beautiful day in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you thought it would be

Remember playing games at the rich kid's home,
his dad owned a bank, while his mom was alone
Everyday with the mailman, the trash man, lawn guy
Kid didn't look a damn thing like his dad (I knew why)
He grew up got a job making 80 grand a year
Had a wife and kid, all the guys called a queer
But his dad never knew, he was too blind to see
Guess it kinda ran in the family

Just another day in suburbia
It's a beautiful day in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you thought it would be

Remember the girl down the street with the kids
That used to come outside, but she never did
Cuz she was trying to hide the bruises where her old man beat her,
Cuz he hit her in the face with an old space heater.

He'd come home drunk and tried to force sex on her
But he didn't see the 44 stuffed in the covers
So she waited til he came as he lie there naked
Before she blew his head off, she told him she'd been faking
all along, so long for everything you done wrong
Here's a bullet, go to hell, cuz its where you belong

Just another day in suburbia
It's a beautiful day in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you thought it would be
Just another day in suburbia
Yeah this is how we're living in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you want it to be

No one understands it, no one comprehends it
I Guess you had to be there, from the outside looking in
So I put my Outkast record, turn up the volume cuz I'm all alone
And scream away (yeaaaah...)

Remember the cutest couple in the world
He was the punk and she was daddy's little girl
Graduation came and she wanted him to stay
But he had bigger better dreams waiting out in LA.
She cried and he cried as the plane flew away
She never ever wanted it to end this way
2 years later, she reads in the news he'd gone on to be a big star but she never knew,
cuz he changed up his name but his heart stayed the same,
cuz every song he wrote, was about her, he claimed.
But he never got to tell her cuz he died that year
from all of the coke, and the pills, and the beer
and the whole world cried, but just or one day...
Cuz sooner or later, the pain goes away

Just another day in suburbia
It's a beautiful day in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you thought it would be
Just another day in suburbia
Yeah this is how we're living in suburbia
Best not let it get the best of you
Is it everything you want it to be

corrective medicine

2005-12-12T02:30:49Z

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ain't no use in turnin on your light babe

2005-11-09T09:19:00Z

i'm on the darkside of the road
but i wish there was something you would do or say
to try and make me change my mind and stay
but we never did much talking anway

don't think twice, it's alright

i dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave

2005-11-08T21:54:38Z

the_best_virus @ 2005-11-03T21:29:00

2005-11-04T03:34:31Z

no more
no
leave me alone
FUCK

ugh

2005-10-30T02:00:47Z

i've been looking so long at these pictures of you, that i almost believed that they were real

i got snakebites...and they're hot
i love new piercingsssss

a secret was concealed

2005-10-26T01:08:08Z

you make me happy when skies are grey

.......

no
i'm not happy
wtf
why am i here?
i think it's time to move

no sense in hangin around

2005-10-19T23:25:39Z

maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby

2005-10-12T04:41:03Z

I can't fucking stand it when you're around

2005-08-30T06:17:33Z

Midwest love-affair.....

ugh....

I'm tired of feeling like I'm seconds away from dying....it's a tease that it doesn't happen

signed,

waiting like an idiot for you

nukka, please

2005-08-24T14:36:10Z

I got new hurr and a sweet belt buckle

spoiling yourself is fun